For about 20 years, I tried all paths to have a good flight, and my landing be safe, in a light region and with healthy children...Yet, all my ascents ended with failure that pulverized all my bones. Oh, Dear Lord, how come all paths end up nowhere? How come the turn of days plunges us back to the same abyss again and again, and makes us grow more despair? I questioned myself, but (I did know that) the desperate are not favored by God. I put my hands on my numb knees, I wanted to protect my child against the trap of addiction. I was struggling to find a way and wanted to get out of the turbulent water and be happy to be assured of my child's breathing and revival. But this time, the waves of the endless sea threw me to hard rocks, Congress 60, where I woke up and comprehended what I did not know.
The Lord sent some angels (the guides) along my way to help me carry my family to the green fields (the secured and calm place). But to accomplish my work, I had to tolerate some ups and downs. I had to suffer and pass all of those steep and dangerous mountains, roads with frost and deep valleys. As that was the only and ultimate way to reach the safe beach, my traveller and I continued our own paths. We started (our travel) about 13 months ago and passed the hardship of life in autumn and winter. Although there were many difficulties, we kept in our minds that moving towards changing and becoming balanced require proper thoughts and ideas.
Still, we are far from redemption, but little by little, we have trudged the dark way and come closer to the light. And here we are experiencing the last step, on the verge of liberation (from addiction) (0.3 cc of OT per day). How exciting it will be: reaching the summit and seeing all the beauty of the world from there (liberation perspective). We will relax at this station and we will strengthen our wings so that we can help other drug-users get rid of addiction. And then, we will have a pleasant landing on the green fields, at this time, we will be able to revive again, to live again to look at the world differently.
Translated by: Companion Elham
Date: April 5, 2016